Even as I write those words I cringe & try to stifle a guffaw. Discipline to me is a bad word because it implies boring. I don’t see anything beautiful about discipline. Why save for the future when I can buy on credit now? Why eat egg whites when I crave a doughnut? But giving in to my cravings and desires has done nothing but put me in to debt and put nearly 200 pounds on my frame. Both things I despise and am ashamed of.

But do I really despise it? Not enough to make lasting changes. Until now. Why now? The Perfect Storm:

·                  195 pounds

·                  Too tight pants and refuse to go up another size

·                  The Beck Diet Solution

·                  Made to Crave by Lysa TerKeurst

·                  Defeating Self-Defeating Behaviors w/Margie Lawson

I’m tired of making excuses. I hate it when others do it, but I allow exceptions for myself. No more. I can’t keep doing what I’ve done and expect a different outcome. That’s insanity. Literally.

I’m only on Day Three of this journey. I know there will be challenges and temptations ahead. Every road has bumps, detours and exit ramps. What’s different this time? I won't be on this journey alone this time. Before I’ve done it on my own willpower and determination. Obviously failing. This time I will invite the Holy Spirit on my journey. He will guide and encourage me and be my Comforter when I’m craving comfort food and/or sugar. This time the purpose of my journey is not just to lose weight, have a cuter wardrobe and be healthier. This time it’s to go on an adventure with a Friend. A Friend I’ve neglected and want to get reacquainted with.

Wish me luck and say a prayer for me when you think about it. I'm going to need all the prayers I can get.